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Supreme Being
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| I've come to realise today I'm an addict. I've struggled so much lately and have promptly gained 7kg after ending another stupid relationship and come to the realisation I've "filled the void" with food - lots of it. With the lack of 'eeer intimacy' I've turned to food big time. I'm normally (as in when I'm not addicted) a savoury person but recently I've wanted sweet, then savoury and then oooh I need something sweet now. It's insane. I actually went to the supermarket the other day for dog food and bought - licorice - ice cream - chocolate - yoghurt and of course dog food. The only thing I didn't graze on that night was the dog food! The weight gain is no surprise, Canteen Noodles, Hells Pizza, Ciabatta with lashings of Pate. I've eaten terrible terrible things that would clog anyone's arteries, let alone a girl apparently trying to get under 100kg. Anyhoo the reason I came to the realisation today is I really really wanted something 'BAD' to eat and I coudn't/didn't and I actually felt physically ill. I was trying to figure out how I could get to the shops and back without anyone noticing (I'd already been late for the staff meeting). I slumped back into my desk and chipped away at fresh strawberries which were devine, I didn't succumb, but BOY did I WANT that flat white and a couple of savouries. Hope I can hold out for the week at least as I know if I can do a week, then another day will follow. I'm so afraid of hitting 140kg again - but it seems perhaps not afraid enough to stop. My main reason for wanting to lose is health related and a close 2nd to buy clothes with ease. I'm not all that worried about how I look perse', that's not it. Maybe health and clothing isn't enough hmmmmmmm, it really should be eh. Thanks for letting me vent. X
Mini Goal - 125kg by 29th April 29 April my birthday - 125kg? 22 April
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4 March 29 Feb 22 Feb 19 Feb 12 Feb 5 Feb - 137.1kg . . GOAL 95kg (size 16/18)
- a healthier, happier painfree sandradeee Overall Weightloss Ticker 
Whatever Works - journey in pictures can be found here
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Supreme Being
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PS Im just about to head up to the Post Office and really need to NOT go into the chocolate shop next door.
Mini Goal - 125kg by 29th April 29 April my birthday - 125kg? 22 April
15 April
8 April
1 April
25 March
18 March
11 March
4 March 29 Feb 22 Feb 19 Feb 12 Feb 5 Feb - 137.1kg . . GOAL 95kg (size 16/18)
- a healthier, happier painfree sandradeee Overall Weightloss Ticker
Whatever Works - journey in pictures can be found here
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Supreme Being
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Supreme Being
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| Jen I made it... the choccie shop is right next door and I honestly had to FORCE myself not to go in. Popped into the supermarket on the way home and bought more strawberries and some cold cuts for wraps. i'm thinking of food 24/7 right now. It's 10 to 8 at night and I'm thinking Jarrah Coffee and Buttersnap Biscuits. I promise I won't though, can't keep having my weight go up like it has. So disappointed in myself. Perhaps I should go to bed to be sure I don't put my fingers in the pantry! 
Mini Goal - 125kg by 29th April 29 April my birthday - 125kg? 22 April
15 April
8 April
1 April
25 March
18 March
11 March
4 March 29 Feb 22 Feb 19 Feb 12 Feb 5 Feb - 137.1kg . . GOAL 95kg (size 16/18)
- a healthier, happier painfree sandradeee Overall Weightloss Ticker
Whatever Works - journey in pictures can be found here
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Supreme Being
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| Hey San Sorry to hear you are struggling big time atm. I don't know what the answer is - goodness knows if I did, I would be one of the success stories on here! Just wanted to let you know I hear you, I'm frequently at the same place mentally and I know how crappy it can make you feel. Sometimes I try to take a hint from all the tips for how to stop smoking - just get yourself through the next 5 mins, just get yourself through the next 5 mins and so on - sometimes it works. And I know it can be difficult to try and fit it in - but I think taking up some sort of exercise does your mind as well as your body a lot of good. When I'm exercising I tend to feel a bit better about myself and find it a bit less of a battle to make healthy food choices. Hope you find your mojo soon.
  
"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose." Dr. Seuss    Restart: 2010 Trying Again Challenge - pledge 3kg 4/1/2010 93.9 11/1/2010 94.7  18/1/2010 93.4  25/1/2010 92.4  1/2/2010 DNW
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Hey, I'm sorry to hear you are having such a horrid time at the moment... not that I can do anything, but i'm sure we're all thinking of you! Hope you can get through the next few weeks, be strong! Tell yourself you are a strong confident woman and you DONT NEED THAT FOOD.
Good luck, we know you can do it!
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Supreme Being
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| You can do it hun!!! We can all do it TOGETHER!!
  Started 19th January, 2009..... 140 kgs 26/1/09.. lost 4.6 kgs........... 135.4kgs 2/2/09.. lost 1.1 kgs.......... 134.3kgs 5/3/09.. lost 4.8 kgs........... 129.5kgs 2/4/09.. lost 2.5 kgs.......... 127.0 kgs 5/5/09.. lost 3.5kgs.......... 123.5kgs 3/6/09.. lost 3.0 kgs.......... 120.5kgs 6/7/09.. lost 2.5kgs........... 118.0kgs 3/8/09.. lost 2.8kgs........... 115.2kgs 7/9/09.. lost 3.7kgs........... 111.5kgs 5/10/09.. lost 2.2kgs........... 109.3kgs 3/11/09.. lost 2.1kgs........... 107.2kgs 01/12/09.. lost 2.7kgs........... 104.5kgs 1/1/10.. lost 2.2kgs........... 102.3kgs 2/2/10.. lost 1.3kgs........... 101.0kgs 1/3/10.. lost 1.0kgs........... 100.0kgs 18/3/10...lost 0.4kgs.......... 99.4kgs TOTAL LOST ... 40.6KGS YAY!! *1st Goal is to get to 130kgs by the 5/3/2009!:  ** 2nd goal is to be 120kgs by the mid JUNE 2009  *** 3rd goal is 115kgs by mid - August 2009  **** 4th goal is 110kgs by 28/9/ 2009   ***** 5th goal is 105kgs by 23/11/2009  ****** 6th goal is 100kgs by March 2010  ****** 7th Goal is 95kgs by May 2010  
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| Hi I read about your struggle today and I really felt for you. I've only just recently acknowledged that I had a food addiction too. But after heaps of reading up about it (trying to get motivation to diet) I came across something...that it only takes 3 days to get the physical cravings out of your system. After that, it's purely psychological. Have you ever realised that after you eat crap, your body wants more crap the next day? But when you're eating right and have done so for a few days, you don't feel like maccas or other crap anymore. But go and have maccas, and then you will have 3 days of craving sugar again. Hence, now I just avoid any food that will leave me acting like a shark tasting blood (like Bruce in Nemo!!). The other thing I do is exercise, even if it's just a walk. The other day I even ran on the treadmill, and after 20 minutes I had worked off 125 calories....that's not even half a mars bar. So now I think to myself, "do i want to flog it out for the gym for an hour to earn myself a mars bar...(when I really feel like 3 of them), or do I just go and eat a piece of fruit and go for a walk?" I'm only new to Tony Ferguson. (Although I've been dieting for a while...I just wanted to speedy things up a little). Wednesday will be my first weigh - in. I've intentionally avoided jumping on my scales at home because I didn't want to be consumed with this. I obviously do think about it a lot..I have to, as I have to plan out each meal and try and make it family-friendly (being toddler-friendly and budget-friendly aswell). Unfortunately though, I had got into the bad habit of thinking that I'm only worth my external appearance, until I read Lisa Bevere's 'You're not what you weigh", and it changed me completely. I was completely obsessed with what I weighed to the point of not valuing myself as a person anymore because I was overweight. After reading this book I realise that it's not what I weigh that counts. So now, I'm doing this diet to help me get back some energy levels and be in a healthy weight range. Whether that's 65kg or 60kg, I don't care, as long as I'm happy and acknowledging my internal attributes as well. All the best for your weight loss journey.
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| Sandradee! Have you been living my life?????? It sounds so much like me!! For some reason your not loving yourself enough at the moment! (Probably due to the failed relationship). I've learnt from many many years of dieting that I can't diet unless I'm loving myself enough to look after myself! Sounds to me like you don't think you deserve to lose weight! Jo x
Slow and steady wins the race! | Week | Date | Weight | Loss/Gain | BMI | Total Loss | | Week | Date | Weight | Loss/Gain | BMI | Total Loss | | 1 | 11/08/09 | 99 | | 35.2 | | | 31 | | | | | | | 2 | 15/08/09 | 96.1 | -2.9 | 34.2 | 2.9 | | 32 | | | | | | | 3 | 24/08/09 | 94.3 | -1.8 | 33.6 | 4.7 | | 33 | | | | | | | 4 | 31/08/09 | 92.6 | -1.7 | 33 | 6.4 | | 34 | | | | | | | 5 | 7/09/09 | 91.4 | -1.2 | 32.5 | 7.6 | | 35 | | | | | | | 6 | 14/09/09 | 90.6 | -0.8 | 32.2 | 8.4 | | 36 | | | | | | | 7 | 21/09/09 | 90.4 | -0.2 | 32.2 | 8.6 | | 37 | | | | | | | 8 | 28/09/09 | 89.9 | -0.5 | 32.0 | 9.1 | | 38 | | | | | | | 9 | 05/10/09 | 88.4 | -1.5 | 31.5 | 10.6 | | 39 | | | | | | | 10 | 12/10/09 | 87.1 | -1.3 | 31 | 11.9 | | 40 | | | | | | | 11 | 19/10/09 | 86.5 | -0.6 | 30.8 | 12.5 | | 41 | | | | | | | 12 | 26/10/09 | 85.4 | -1.1 | 30.4 | 13.6 | | 42 | | | | | | | 13 | 02/11/09 | 83.9 | -1.5 | 29.9 | 15.1 | | 43 | | | | | | | 14 | 09/11/09 | 82.9 | -1.0 | 29.5 | 16.1 | | 44 | | | | | | | 15 | 16/11/09 | 82.7 | -0.2 | 29.4 | 16.3 | | 45 | | | | | | | 16 | 23/11/09 | 81.5 | -1.2 | 29 | 17.5 | | 46 | | | | | | | 17 | 30/11/09 | 81 | -0.5 | 28.8 | 18 | | 47 | | | | | | | 18 | 07/12/09 | 80.5 | -0.5 | 28.6 | 18.5 | | 48 | | | | | | | 19 | 15/12/09 | 80.4 | -0.1 | 28.6 | 18.6 | | 49 | | | | | | | 20 | 21/12/09 | 78.9 | -1.5 | 28.1 | 20.1 | | 50 | | | | | | | 21 | 28/12/09 | Had two weeks holiday from TF | | 51 | | | | | | | 22 | 04/01/10 | 80.3 | +1.4 Yikes! | 28.6 | 18.7 | | 52 | | | | | | | 23 | 11/01/10 | Too scared to go! | | 53 | | | | | | | 24 | 18/01/10 | 80.6 | +0.3Oh No! | 28.7 | 18.4 | | 54 | | | | | | | 25 | 01/02/10 | 82.5 | +1.9 Help! | 29.4 | 16.5 | | 55 | | | | | | | 26 | 08/02/10 | 81.1 | -1.4 | 28.9 | 17.9 | | 56 | | | | | | | 27 | 15/02/10 | 81.8 | +0.7 | 29.1 | 17.2 | | 57 | | | | | | | 28 | 22/02/10 | 79.3 | -2.5 | 28.2 | 19.7 | | 58 | | | | | | | 29 | | | | | | | 59 | | | | | | | 30 | | | | | | | 60 | | | | | |
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